It’s part of the addiction.
Your mind wanders out of control,
as it has ten thousand times before, and in no time you are lost
in a fantasy world of self-indulgence with some beautiful,
exotic, sensual goddess…
Now, hold that thought because
we’re going to come back to it.
Who exactly is that alluring
“goddess” that has you so enraptured, heart, mind, body and
soul?
Let’s investigate and explore who
she really is, why she is seemingly so ever present in your
thoughts and what she truly wants from you.
In other words, lets talk about
the demonic.
Demons are an inescapable part of
the Old Testament. They are named there: Lucifer in
Isaiah, Asmodeus in Tobit, Satan in Job. And the
New Testament can almost sound like the story of Christ the
Exorcist, come to earth to end the reign of that strongman,
Beelzebub. In St. John’s words, “The reason the son of man
appeared was to destroy the works of the devil.”
Different demons specialize in
different temptations.
Asmodeus is the demon of lust.
Read the story of Tobit to familiarize yourself with his
cunning and seductive skills, his deadly, poisonous, malevolent
evil. This demon succeeds in killing several men through their
own lust before encountering Tobit and the Archangel Raphael.
It makes one wonder how many other poor souls have fallen to
Asmodeus throughout history since those days so long ago.
When the opportunity to indulge in
fantasy overtakes you, instead of dwelling on the beauty and
exotic sensuality of your fantasy, try to look past the alluring
mask to see the demon lurking there.
When it comes to manifestations of
evil, I always think of spiders.
Instead of imagining yourself
caressing the silky thigh of some gorgeous blond, realize that
you are actually stroking the leg of an eight foot spider that
sits patiently still, with poisonous fangs bared, just waiting
for precisely the right moment to tear you to shreds, then carry
what’s left of your mutilated body and soul down to the abyss of
hell.
Look at a spider’s web and you see
it strewn with the carcasses of its many victims, each caught
and entangled in its deceptive yet powerful web, only to be held
immobile and utterly helpless as the spider gleefully approaches
to feast upon another victim’s very life blood.
You are that victim.
At this point, the spider sinks
its fangs deep into your helpless body, filling you with still
more poison. As you watch, paralyzed and motionless, yet still
very much alive and aware, the spider begins to feed – on you.
This is the real face of
pornography – the face behind the alluring, seductive mask.
Behind every pornographic image,
behind every lustful thought hides just such a demon, lurking in
the dark recesses of your mind, working you, coaxing you,
seducing you, leading you ever deeper into its web, until that
moment when you are at your weakest, enticing you to commit the
most heinous mortal sin against almighty God for the sake of a
few moments of pleasure.
It has you. It has you again and
again and again.
Worse still, out of habit you come
freely seeking your spider, searching for relief, consolation,
companionship, love. And every time you are rewarded with
darkness, frustration and emptiness – and another dose of
addictive poison.
This visage of so hideous an evil
should be enough to frighten the most hardened porn addict into
sobriety.
Become aware of your surroundings,
and come to know your enemy – especially the one within.
Her image is cunning, seductive
and beautiful – her reality is merciless, relentless,
destructive, horrific and malevolent evil.
Be aware of what it is that is
working in your mind, because it is both very real and very
deadly.
Beware of Asmodeus and his kingdom
of spiders.
Believe me – they are aware of
you.
Every time that you are tempted
with an impure thought or desire, look past the allurement and
see the evil. I can assure you, nothing has so helped me be
free of this addiction as much as this.
As a follow up, I encourage you to
read the Epistle of Jude.
Never heard of it? It’s in the
Bible. It’s the second to last book in Scripture, just before
the book of Revelation.
It, too, addresses the seriousness
of breaking free from the spider’s web while you still have life
and strength within you.
God Bless!
paul, for the Serenellians
