A:
Dear Greg,
Regarding your question, your
fear falls under what the Church calls "scrupulosity". It is an undue
fear of God that comes from the devil working on you to cause you to
lose trust in God's mercy.
As Padre Pio once said, "Should you commit a mortal sin, immediately
say an act of contrition and move on. What else can you do?"
Condemnation to hell comes about
as the result of an individual's continuing and habitual recalcitrance
and resistance to God's offer of mercy. In other words, God doesn't
send anyone to hell, this is what a soul does to itself of conscious,
premeditated choice.
Sacred Scripture in several different books states clearly that we are
all sinners.
The difference between the
sinners that go to Heaven and the sinners that go to hell lies in the
way that they deal with their sinfulness.
That is, the penitent sinner acknowledges his sins before God,
recognizes his weak and disordered nature, and tries his best to seek
and do the will of God to the best of his ability. This is the
essential meaning of perseverance.
The condemned sinner, on the other hand, sees his sin as something
good and beneficial, so he clings to it with all of his strength and
will. Likewise, he sees God as an impediment to his personal
satisfaction and gratification, so he becomes angry with God and
rejects Him along with His love, His graces and His Mercy.
In other words, the damned sinner loves the sin and hates God while
the saved sinner loves God and hates the sin, even though he may be
inclined to fall into repeat sins as a consequence of his fallen
nature.
Remember what our Lord said, "You cannot serve two masters. Either
you will hate the one and love the other or love the one and hate the
other."
For yourself, (as is true for
each of us), you need to decide which you love more, God or sexual
pleasure.
The only two options that we have to choose from in all of human
existence are Heaven and Hell.
God Bless you!
We will certainly keep you in our daily thoughts and prayers.
Fraternally in Christ,
Paul Rasavage
for the Serenellians
and www.PornNoMore.com